Games in 1993 Mode

He said:
"You don´t need to do it right
as long as you do something"
I grind my teeth and bite my lip
He makes me crazy though I shouldn´t give a shit
but I want him to walk with me
Before the Sun gets up,
before his eyes are shut,
before I need to wake up

I have curls in my hair
and lips painted as a bundle of dried roses
waiting to rise up to life
I coloured them without a smile
Thinking how he said
"you looked a lot better
when you didn´t look that way"
He left me wonder something clever to say

And I love to swing, whirl and spin,
make myself invisible again
Blow some kisses that mean nothing
Say goodbyes without feeling a thing
I have my dices just as you have yours
and the aces where my place is
Wherever I lay my head, they might say,
rootless bitch,
haven´t felt home sick in a while
and right now my home is this

He laid his lips too close to my neck,
said: "I want to feel your breath"
but I knew he was just in a need of a ride,
and I was in the right place at the right time
So I said I need to get my dreams in line
and I think you are ready to step behind"
He looked at me like he looked at his mother
when he was 14 and in need of a lover,
thinking "I´m gonna show you in a way or another,
I´m the one who makes the decisions
and you´re not in the place to decide for me"

I let him smell my skin and dance with me
thinking that´s something that sets me free
He said he likes to spin with me
and listen to the songs of 1993
But little did he know those songs make me cry
I forced to close my eyes good and
pressed myself to get blind
"my eyes get bright when I see you lie"
He didn´t hear me and that´s just fine

I´ll be choosing my dress real precise this night,
make my hair so pretty and my eyes real wide
I´ve rehearsed my lines and to be a simple kind,
simple kind of a girl, just right
So he´d say "you´re the one and only one
and the right one so let´s have fun"
I might stagger and waver,
ask him to hold me and forget her
The one with lips as pine flowers,
hair as the sundown in LA

I wait him to smell my hair and compliment my dress
as he always does in the end,
as he always pays me the night well spent
And when he finally says something real
I shut down ´cause I hear him speak
Short he´s real and not enough for me
but for the first time I really see him,
saying "I was lost in the fire last time
and I´m afraid to feel
´cause my skin still hurts"
and I know he means his mind
because life and love might burn

I look at his face and he makes me sad,
thinking he´s still 14 and he´s still mad
He just wants a ride back home
and I was there at the right time and alone
He doesn´t even like the colour of my dress,
my skin´s too pale and my lips too dark
But for me everything else is less
and I like mornings better with it
My armour of lies is better than the defect

By the morning time I have cleared my mind
I can listen to the sad songs of 1993
Strip down and breathe
Fix him off from my dreams,
him saying:
"I didn´t like your feather earrings for real"
and I´m thinking,
"well fuck you, then, and fuck your
pine flower lipped dream"
But, of course, my dreams are new next week

He said:
"If I could choose I´d be free
not with anyone else but me
without any burn marks and hurt
without my girl with LA hair and
maybe your red dress turned into skirt
on my pine wooded bedroom floor"

Everyone on My Mind is in My Head

You think you get scared so very easily
Whenever something clacks you think it´s the door behind you
and though you´ll try to keep your cool
you wait for the night when it´s dark and cool
You´ll wait ´til your heartbeat levels down
and change your look and walking style
Just like someone would give a fuck or care anyway
So please, go on and walk away

But you know, you honey, just like the wrong kind of music
You wish you had my breathing recorded on your player,
tapes and casettes with my name all over them and
you came so close while trying to imagine what I sound like
and you came up with nothing,
nothing at all
So you started to invent things,
inhale my sweat, steal my things and
sleep with them in my old bed and
dream on Mondays when you should´ve gone to work

I might like you with that hat on,
but baby, that doesn´t make me love you and I,
I am very hard to please in a longer period of time
though it may have seemed like another deal
when I leaned on your arm on the dancefloor of that bar
and sat on the front seat of your car but I saw
that you´d got nothing for me, I saw that from far

You are not quite sure just what are you doing
I´m not quite sure are you even a human being
Because I saw you dancing and laughing yesterday
but your laughter sounded like a heartbreak to me
and your moves, can I even go there now,
well now honey, maybe you should slow down
Take it from me, your adversary

You can pretend all you want but I won´t give you any lies
even though your hands are all over your hips and thighs,
all over my man, my best friends or mine
You can rotate and whirl or spin and turn
and touch like no other and be the best mother fucker
and you know what, you should be better
´cause I count on the rumours being true about you

So you should stop coming on my way, stop
asking me why if you are not ready for the play
and I should be nicer and stop depending on the dice
and live my own life and we should grow some
balls and some spine and I should stop
faking my smiles and you should stop liking them so much
´cause lately I´ve been disgusted by you
and that´s a lot

You get so scared so very easily but the hardest part
is to follow your dreams and you think it´s me
who to blame or who you want to see,
whose dreams you have dreamed or who´s on
your way to fantasies and I´ll give you all the time
if you let go of mine and what belongs to me
is inside of my head and me,
I´m not too easy to please so I´ll ask
one more nicely, please,
let go of my dreams

Let´s just save the whole cake and eat it

Chew your bites well, boy
and remember better next time
not to cleave a too big piece
when your plate couldn´t hold mine
I won´t waste too much time on this
´cause I know I wouldn´t like the sight
I wouldn´t look too good on you
but I know we would fit so tight

Choose carefully what you´re saying
´cause I´ll remember every word
But don´t you worry, honey,
I will never say a word
I´ll forgive so very easily
though I will never forget
But there´s nothing to say
´cause we´ve hardly ever met

You may be the hurricane on the street
but I´m the rock down the road
and I´ll stay right there
and never let go
When in need of a haven just ask me
to be your girl and come back
I won´t give you heaven just bacause
I´m easy like that

Remember you need to clean up your own mess
and I blame it all on you, too
I´d like to think I don´t hold grudges
even if you didn´t take me with you
But like he said boys and girls will dream
and I dream a lot of things
Hey, we´re all grown up now
though it doesn´t mean a thing

You must think you´re so clever
but you don´t even know
How many times I´ve looked the other way
though I stared just a moment ago
I like to play those kinds of games
and I like to play with you
You must get something out of it too
maybe ´cause it feels so good

Don´t speak with your mouth full
and everything goes smooth
I know I dream, lay and lie
´cause it´s hard to stick with the truth
So you don´t need to worry, hey
just let the dogs bark
Colours are what they are
but we look better in the dark