Hello

Hey
I know our seconds have felt like decades
and I don´t even know do I have anything more to say
I guess your words are lost in the sea
and I keep on forgetting too easily

What is there tomorrow
if I start gambling today
I keep counting the moments and
I can´t keep the numbers straight

I don´t know could you change my mind
but I know I can´t play against the time
I feel like I have all the cards but
never a full hand or a winning line

Hey
I don´t know which of these feelings I feel most
and I feel like a fraud for quite a good reason
I know I´ve made promises and I think I believed them
but lately I´ve felt like I need to run

I know I may not win anything
I know I may break everything
But I don´t even know who I am
maybe I need to feel what it´s like to get broken
I just want to do it without breaking a thing

I am lost and I feel like I need to save my self
I feel I´m running miles everyday
Maybe it doesn´t change to anything better
but I feel like I can´t keep fooling us this way

And it´s nobody´s fault but mine
I feel like I can´t keep losing more time
or more of my mind
Maybe this is the way I´ll lose it all but
I know I need to look so I could find

Turned into Cinder

We thought we had it,
we already got so close
We got the vine in our hands
and forgot it wasn´t a rope
I caught you sleeping,
you got me naked
We didn´t have the time as we thought

We don´t even know what we want
even though we say all the I want you´s
The dark gets us everytime
howling at the moon
as the light has gotten quicker
it turns us into fools

I just want you to say
you won´t ever forget me
you won´t ever
you won´t ever
you won´t ever forget me

How many times have we done the same mistakes?
Really, count them, count them now
How many times have I whispered your name
while watching you wave
while watching the planes
while watching his heart break

How many times have we closed the last page?
The sheets thrown out and away
How many times have you closed my eyes to say
start making up your mind
start building up your life
start to live to be mine

You just want me to say
you are not alone
you are not
you are not
you are not alone

Please let me know when to come back home
I need somebody to guide me as you need someone to call your own
Please let me move on towards the light
I need somebody to fool me the future´s always bright
You have been a dream I lost
You have been a beast to get caught
You have been too much to me
and I have turned into cinder these days
I have turned into cinder
I have turned into cinder
I have turned

I just want you to say
you won´t ever forget me
you won´t ever
you won´t ever
you won´t ever forget me

How long will it take to stop feeling a thing?
Really, how many days?
How long will it take to stop liking this game
which will never be won
which will never be played alone
which won´t end before someone breaks

How long can someone walk on home?
One step forward and at least three back
How many steps can be taken alone
without saying it´s too cold
without saying I told you so
without saying I need to let you go

You just want me to say
you are not alone
you are not
you are not
you are not alone

I thought I got you
You told me I was a fool
As more you dripped between my fingers
the more I thought I wanted you
I caught you sleeping
and lost you to the planes
So you never saw me,
sometimes just called my name
I kept telling myself it´s fine
´cause my memories kept me sane
You have been too much to me
and I have turned into cinder these days
I have turned into cinder
I have turned into cinder
I have turned

The Canyon

I want to get drowned
in the canyon,
get lost in the wilderness
sometimes all I want is
to get lost in my own head
by myself
on my own
Heartbreaking suffocation
Coughing up the sand and tears
What a fucked up situation
I got tangled in my own web of fears

The other night I dreamt a dream of you
Yesterday I couldn´t figure out if it was true
I can´t remember your face when I´m down
I guess it´s ´cause you dont´t want to be found
You´ve grown so deep inside of me
that I can´t tell the difference between
You´re like the song I hear in my sleep
and awake I´m just moving my lips

I want to scream in to the canyon
that I want to drown in my sleep

I don´t want to get lost between the lines
I don´t need you to read me
When I close my eyes I just
I just hope that something breaks me
Something without a name, something un-known
Something that makes me cinder and bones
These dreams make me hate the reality
that tries to force me to make up my mind

I want to get drowned
in the forest,
sleep forever on the hummocks
Freeze to death so sweetly,
´cause all I really want is
to be left alone
without a home
Heartbreaking conclusion
Sinking in the dead leafs and tears
What a fucked up termination
to rot so slowly without any boldness
Isn´t it my dear?

The other night I didn´t know what kind of dreams
I was made to play
All I knew and all I still do is that
in my dreams I´m a stray
I´m so easy
and I don´t know what I want
Two bloods inside of me
struggling to get their parts

I want to scream in to the canyon
that I want to drown in the sand
I want the wind to cover me up
so I keep on dreaming of a helping hand
I could be one with the snakes, lizards and time
and my story could be a big old lie
You could be one with the engines, gasoline and fire
and your story could be buried with mine

Something got Lost in the Forest

Oo, I´ve been haunted
by the crick cracks of the old house and I
I´ve been breaking
I´ve been breaking up in parts so many times
that I don´t know what to say anymore
I don´t know how to keep my cool
I don´t know is it me or you
but I´ve got myself some blues

I think I´ve lost my dancing shoes

Don´t you remember the whispers and lies,
how the old woman was rolling her eyes
As her hand in the fire
my hands are tied
And I know there´s a reason not to open my eyes
The nightmares come back like
they´ve never been left behind

O, I´ve got cracks in my mind
like somebody´s walking there
Like I hear the steps but nobody´s in the stairs
Light makes pretty shadows
but I like the dark more as you´re there
Sometimes I´m afraid of myself
painting with shadows that are not anywhere

I might be a bit scared
of losing my time and dreams
My heart is bursting and my lips are sealed
I don`t know how I could get on through,
get on through and get close to you
When my head is filled with memories
fear and fright left in my old room

Don´t you know my mind is haunted
and I´ll never know what I truly want
I´m chasing nothing but ghosts
Ghosts I left back home
And I don´t know how to keep my cool
And I know it´s not me or you
but I think I´ve got myself some blues
I just need to find my dancing shoes

Despair

I got everything, I got nothing
I wanted a green moss on my floor,
my rooms covered as forests
I got everything, I got nothing
And I want it all

I want to sleep in your room,
watch the roof from your couch
Feel it´s fluff against my toes
Hear you tiptoe in to the bath
while I pretend to sleep

I want to hear you, I want to listen
I want to feel your breath on me
I want you to think that I´m asleep
Look at me, touch me

Let´s wake up without feeling numb,
don´t want to feel dumb
because of wanting it all
I want to be real
I want to feel your need

I got everything, I got nothing
I wanted to paint my life
but I got nothing
A pale canvas painted with frost
I got a feeling I am so lost
I want to feel

Let´s pretend once more
Let´s forget the dance floor
I want to hear you whisper
I want to touch your warmth
What if I want to open your door?

Don´t close it in front of me,
don´t take it all back from me
Here I sleep,
hear me breathe
Come and sit close to me
Kiss my eyes open and free

I want it all
though I have everything
and I feel nothing
I wanted moss on my floor
but I found myself begging