Denver, part one

Denver is a girl I´d like to be like
she´s a girl that makes the boys sigh
She takes what she wants just
like she takes her clothes off
Just by nodding her head she gets them off
The boys may think they got her
but she´s got them by the balls
Denver moves her hips and bites her lower lip
She looks down to the tips of her shoes
and whips her hair when she looks at you
The moment is over so fast it got you thinking
was it really you who she chose
But when she comes as close as she does
and accidentally touches your arm
it got you thinking what it really was
but you don´t have the time to ask
´cause she´s already doing that same old trick to
someone else
That poor bastard
Stares at her whipping her hair
and you, looking at him, you fool
He nods his head to the music
pretending to listen what his pals have to say
He´s biting his lower lip
as he´s watching her move her hips
He raffles should he make a move
looks at the tips of his leather shoes
Makes a move
Too late, ´cause she´s looking at you
You have that smile that you´ve won
She sees that too, you´re not the only one
She dances really close, moves her head
You look at the poor bastard behind her
taking a step back
He´s rubbing his neck and gulps down his beer
You rub your teeth with your tongue
pretending to listen the mumble
You look at Denver and you promise to say something
You stumble, you know it,
your words start to crumble
You look down to the tips of your shoes and
that´s about it

Just the Right Colour

The sky is red as her lips when she sips her white wine
she tries to understand what adult life is like
It´s hard to think because of the excitement of tonight
She got promises that she wants to tattoo around her skin,
little pearls and beans to take forever within
the words that could light up everything

The ground is green to welcome the new start
last time everything started to fall apart
Landing on two feet is not all that´s needed
when she´s looking for things that the time can´t buy
She´s lost much more than she reveals
but there´s something else she hangs on by

She opens her eyes wide when he walks on by
or closes them softly to hide her try
She wants everything so much and at the same time
but giving up or giving in are just not right
She talks like the words are meant as jokes
but hopes he reads between the lines

She thinks to herself: I got this need for you to like me
It burns inside and sometimes I can´t sleep
You must have the words to heal me
or the right look to move me
“I´ve been hanging around just in case,
you will fall in love with me”

And sometimes when she dreams she dreams too much
and the mornings wake her up in so many ways
Though she feels so garbled and tangled
there is one thought she cannot leave behind
The car rides that never really happened
The eyes that never really gave her nothing to find

She takes a sip of her wine and a tear drops in
Just like it never really ran, it just blends right in
It must´ve twirled and spinned right to the bottom
so she leaves just a drop she doesn´t want to drink
Now she acts like she´s forgotten
when they head downtown and get in

And after couple of moments she really doesn´t feel
like she´s missed a lot of time
When every touch she gets feels like the first time
and when she hurries to tell the others
there´s still something more going on
This can´t be it, but can she move on

She knows everything´s left unfinished
if she´d take the step too far
And dreams are just dreams as she´s known all along
so she plans to forget she ever dreamt at all
He must have different kinds of dreams after all
and if they´re nightmares it´s not her name to call

At home it´s easy to feel whatever´s left to feel
But the glass of white wine just mocks her and she
doesn´t really care about the red lipstick stains
Things will fade if they cannot stay
She stares the drop in the bottom of the glass
after all it´s just white wine at last

The salty wine tickles her throat
as she closes her eyes
Tonight dreams will make her moan
or scream because of the elated times
In any case she´s made up her mind
She won´t return from this car ride

(c) Sandi

Branches and leaves

I like branches and leaves, twigs and creeks, lakes wide open,
cold autumn breeze
I´m from a gorge so deep, forests inside of me,
I´m like moss and stones, swing and toss,
that´s needed to get rid of me
But then again, I´ll get cold at nights,
frosty girl, fucked up mind
Run like hell, hide under the purple sky,
am I sick or do I just lie,
don´t correct me if I´m right,
my lies would be liked
I´m a good friend if you take care of my roots,
love me with my truths, cover up my crust when it cries
So hold me tight, lay beside, sweat and freeze,
breathe deep beneath me, pant and sigh,
whisper like the wind in the gray bay
and you got me for a lifetime

(c) Sandi

Two Hours of Both Sides

Smile is just a disguise so sweet
and ignorance is a well practised bliss
Everybody must think they know everybody else so very well
and that´s how I´ve felt so long and, well,
there are times it feels better to dwell
in a good, cozy self hatred hell and
dream of just wishing this all farewell but
just in the last moment,
something happens and so everything happens
and I´m ready to build everything up again

It´s in the little steps, Sun and Rain,
the wisdom of the Earth and Time,
I gather it all and bathe in them
sop it all and breathe them in
Inhale as long as I feel I´m smothering
and it all happens so damn readily that
I wake up gasping something real
That´s not me, that´s not what it seems
I can´t decide what to feel

The fear of the feeling when everything starts to fall apart
That I´ll lose all the memories somehow
is a stone in my private rock ´n roll show and
my burden of having fun and letting it go
And it´s like I´m in the middle of something,
like the moment right now is everything but still
nothing and I´m torn in directions
Tell me where to go

There are too many dreams for me to handle
though I can´t see through the fog
I thrash though I don´t need to struggle
and I fight though I let others overhaul
I don´t want to try just to see I´ve lost
I don´t want to see how much it´s cost
I don´t want to lose everything I love
I rather lose my strenght and self
Just time to time

And there are times I need everything
A permit to let go
Saved from my own pit
Help to choose which way to go
Tell me am I real or not
Put me down so I feel I´m alive and
pick me up when I can´t decide my goal
And end those fights in my head
so I can finally forget

To choose between everything
To talk shit of things
To trick I´m sick and
sick of it
To fake I live when I´m stuck
in undone and carry everything with
and break my back because of it but
To breathe in this moment is all
Am I right?
It´s all I really need but
the hardest skill to master
in a one life time

30 miles/hour

I wish I had my hair coloured with watery pastels
and black as a raven, wings as blinks of a night
and those sunset coloured whispers
as the car symbols for the freedom
and me laughing on it's ride

My summer´s almost gone and it waves with a thunder
and a grey, moist asphalt
Don´t get me wrong, I´ve always loved the rain
and the weird wind, trying to scare us to think
that the autumn is falling on us

Only few people are walking on the street, and those who are,
have already forgotten how to swim in the laughing sea
They colour themselves in dim, matching to the asphalt,
and I wonder do they feel the same way as I do
Do they think they don´t have any time left?
Are they waiting for the weekend?

I tried to take some photos and pictures,
but most of all I wanted to write a lot
and I am disappointed in myself for not trying any harder
I´ve just waited, lying, watching the waves as hours
Blues, blacks, greys, browns, even some greens
Sometimes and that´s a lot of times,
I wonder do they notice me

I am an average, but my dreams are high
They are hard to catch and sometimes, which is a lot of times,
I think to myself are they even forth it
Thinking how nice a bright green car looks like
Thinking that pink trousers do not cover up the boring beige coat
Ennui

And I love those little birds,
sparrows bathing in small puddles
and the thoughts of seagulls nesting
and the rapid steps of a madman
and the pleased smile of a corgi dog

It´s 30 miles / hour
but there´s dancing and a mystical office,
places I´m not allowed to see,
apartments where heads have been cooked and
a solid rock to spend sunny evenings on

I´m thinking more than I´m dreaming
and I spend a lifetime on watching
I want my hair to be golden
but right now I´m happy with my eyes
They look whatever they like
and they photoghraph every bite
Click and roll
It´s in my mind

Ain´t Life Such a Beach?

You knew I´m not bad
and I knew you were lying when you
told me you got sad
But that´s fine ´cause I thought about it for a while
and got into a conclusion that we
have golden souls
We are dumb enough to forget everything and
move on to nothing
Get warm, cuddle and feel something,
be nice to each other and feel nice
around one another
Or just as you´d like, one on other
I´m happy I keep on remembering those steps back
from the beach and each other

My leg stayed on the other


But they keep on watching how we move on and
hopefully to the wrong direction,
maybe they think that they know it all just by a
pity reflection
They don´t seem to get it,
that us two have something though we hid it,
disguised carefully underneath all of it,
us two have golden souls
Every pink dream has something dark in it
and dim corners are filled with our favourite colours
More flavours than you could feed with

Oh, don´t they just want to hit it


Let´s walk down to the national park and get high there,
maybe we could hide there
Seek me, find me, look for each other
Hours could be moments and they would pass us by there,
we wouldn´t move on, we´d just lie there
Find each other again and again,
until forever and nowhere
Let´s look into the eyes, promises and lies,
we have golden souls
and bare love to never let go
so don´t you dare go there

Loving life ain´t always that fair


But when I´m having that drink in my hand
and my eyes are spinning the world
Laughter is the sweet game and
I like to play with words
but the cruelest way to cut out the wings
is to fade away
Glasses are marked with red lipstick
which I´m quite proud of in a weird way
I made a mark on something though and forget I will end up dead
Even if it happened already yesterday,
I´m dreaming my days in my sweet bed
Gin tonic wouldn´t add up with sobriety,
it tastes better with a lime
Life and death are just two different sides
of the same, crooked dice

Golden souls mean nothing at all in the hot summer night


My neck is bleeding but I don´t hurt
I swing by the moment and never get hurt
my fingers do their job too well
they knot and tie down everything
Just for example
I can get my mind twisted
and just by a few moves
it´s all torn, fucked and long gone
and just like that, I just move on
and with the snap of a finger I´m back on
Just like that we just groove on
Just like that it´s bye, bye,
lose my head and die
but just for a little while
´cause golden souls can fly

I´m talking about you, you, you and I


Mistakes may be done,
but do not get fooled by anyone
and what was the quote saying
about the shame on someone?
There should be none,
except a little wistful moments for one,
once in a while a little or more fun,
getting it on with some loved one,
and make a moment
to last for the summer
Stop and think, hon´,
ain´t life such a beach?

Golden souls may be hard to reach

Everyone on My Mind is in My Head

You think you get scared so very easily
Whenever something clacks you think it´s the door behind you
and though you´ll try to keep your cool
you wait for the night when it´s dark and cool
You´ll wait ´til your heartbeat levels down
and change your look and walking style
Just like someone would give a fuck or care anyway
So please, go on and walk away

But you know, you honey, just like the wrong kind of music
You wish you had my breathing recorded on your player,
tapes and casettes with my name all over them and
you came so close while trying to imagine what I sound like
and you came up with nothing,
nothing at all
So you started to invent things,
inhale my sweat, steal my things and
sleep with them in my old bed and
dream on Mondays when you should´ve gone to work

I might like you with that hat on,
but baby, that doesn´t make me love you and I,
I am very hard to please in a longer period of time
though it may have seemed like another deal
when I leaned on your arm on the dancefloor of that bar
and sat on the front seat of your car but I saw
that you´d got nothing for me, I saw that from far

You are not quite sure just what are you doing
I´m not quite sure are you even a human being
Because I saw you dancing and laughing yesterday
but your laughter sounded like a heartbreak to me
and your moves, can I even go there now,
well now honey, maybe you should slow down
Take it from me, your adversary

You can pretend all you want but I won´t give you any lies
even though your hands are all over your hips and thighs,
all over my man, my best friends or mine
You can rotate and whirl or spin and turn
and touch like no other and be the best mother fucker
and you know what, you should be better
´cause I count on the rumours being true about you

So you should stop coming on my way, stop
asking me why if you are not ready for the play
and I should be nicer and stop depending on the dice
and live my own life and we should grow some
balls and some spine and I should stop
faking my smiles and you should stop liking them so much
´cause lately I´ve been disgusted by you
and that´s a lot

You get so scared so very easily but the hardest part
is to follow your dreams and you think it´s me
who to blame or who you want to see,
whose dreams you have dreamed or who´s on
your way to fantasies and I´ll give you all the time
if you let go of mine and what belongs to me
is inside of my head and me,
I´m not too easy to please so I´ll ask
one more nicely, please,
let go of my dreams

Roll Down South

At noon I´m on my way
I´ll promise you that
I´m sipping that drink and watching the waves,
writing my future on my mind
Dreaming behind my sunglasses
of new friends from Friday nights
I´ve always loved those city lights
Under them we´ll shine so bright

Laying on the sand and curl my toes
you make my tongue curl too
You asked me what do I want to do
So let´s go to L.A.
dance on the streets ´til we´re through
Though I´m not too sophisticated
I am no fool for you

Heading to south with
wind in our hair
Thinking,
this is a movie we can not end
We´ll just roll our eyes and roll on
and roll to the south and to the end
If we won´t break on through we will bend
just enough to kiss and tell

Our bodies are pumping and shaking
like the music lives in us
The denim looks like it´s burning
on a skin tanned slighlty
I can´t fake it, I like it
when he´s coming closer to me
We know how to make excuses
Now I wonder what the excuse is

There´s a fire to dance around to
and secrets that haven´t been told
The night is getting older and
you´d think it would get colder
but your hand on my leg warms me
when the others can´t see
They dance around like our friends do
but here I am with you

Wake up on the beach
and the sun hurts our heads
You seem to have crawled away from me
and my friends have gathered beside
You won´t even look at me when you get up
and, hey, that´s just fine
That´s just my style,
one of my favourite lies

I need to leave by noon
and leave my dreams behind
So they´ll turn to gold
and make the footsteps fly
Make my mind to challenge it self
and my heart to burn it´s sides
Open my eyes to new stories
and make up new lies

Want to be the wolf

I´ll suck on that pencil
while trying to get my groove on
and trying to get on that flow
and get some

Sugary orange soda on the side
now with me and on my lips
we´re both waiting for the summer
to get some

You squint because it´s too bright
and forgot your cheap sunglasses
I´d offer you mine
if I got some

I guess I want to be the wolf

You´ll suck your lips dry
on that hot afternoon
because you´re too kind to ask
do I mind

This is my last one, you´ll see,
and I can´t afford another one,
and baby it´s been the only thing
in my mind

You say there´s something
that might help me choosing
might help me let loose and
change my mind

But I guess I want to be the wolf

Let´s just save the whole cake and eat it

Chew your bites well, boy
and remember better next time
not to cleave a too big piece
when your plate couldn´t hold mine
I won´t waste too much time on this
´cause I know I wouldn´t like the sight
I wouldn´t look too good on you
but I know we would fit so tight

Choose carefully what you´re saying
´cause I´ll remember every word
But don´t you worry, honey,
I will never say a word
I´ll forgive so very easily
though I will never forget
But there´s nothing to say
´cause we´ve hardly ever met

You may be the hurricane on the street
but I´m the rock down the road
and I´ll stay right there
and never let go
When in need of a haven just ask me
to be your girl and come back
I won´t give you heaven just bacause
I´m easy like that

Remember you need to clean up your own mess
and I blame it all on you, too
I´d like to think I don´t hold grudges
even if you didn´t take me with you
But like he said boys and girls will dream
and I dream a lot of things
Hey, we´re all grown up now
though it doesn´t mean a thing

You must think you´re so clever
but you don´t even know
How many times I´ve looked the other way
though I stared just a moment ago
I like to play those kinds of games
and I like to play with you
You must get something out of it too
maybe ´cause it feels so good

Don´t speak with your mouth full
and everything goes smooth
I know I dream, lay and lie
´cause it´s hard to stick with the truth
So you don´t need to worry, hey
just let the dogs bark
Colours are what they are
but we look better in the dark