Games in 1993 Mode

He said:
"You don´t need to do it right
as long as you do something"
I grind my teeth and bite my lip
He makes me crazy though I shouldn´t give a shit
but I want him to walk with me
Before the Sun gets up,
before his eyes are shut,
before I need to wake up

I have curls in my hair
and lips painted as a bundle of dried roses
waiting to rise up to life
I coloured them without a smile
Thinking how he said
"you looked a lot better
when you didn´t look that way"
He left me wonder something clever to say

And I love to swing, whirl and spin,
make myself invisible again
Blow some kisses that mean nothing
Say goodbyes without feeling a thing
I have my dices just as you have yours
and the aces where my place is
Wherever I lay my head, they might say,
rootless bitch,
haven´t felt home sick in a while
and right now my home is this

He laid his lips too close to my neck,
said: "I want to feel your breath"
but I knew he was just in a need of a ride,
and I was in the right place at the right time
So I said I need to get my dreams in line
and I think you are ready to step behind"
He looked at me like he looked at his mother
when he was 14 and in need of a lover,
thinking "I´m gonna show you in a way or another,
I´m the one who makes the decisions
and you´re not in the place to decide for me"

I let him smell my skin and dance with me
thinking that´s something that sets me free
He said he likes to spin with me
and listen to the songs of 1993
But little did he know those songs make me cry
I forced to close my eyes good and
pressed myself to get blind
"my eyes get bright when I see you lie"
He didn´t hear me and that´s just fine

I´ll be choosing my dress real precise this night,
make my hair so pretty and my eyes real wide
I´ve rehearsed my lines and to be a simple kind,
simple kind of a girl, just right
So he´d say "you´re the one and only one
and the right one so let´s have fun"
I might stagger and waver,
ask him to hold me and forget her
The one with lips as pine flowers,
hair as the sundown in LA

I wait him to smell my hair and compliment my dress
as he always does in the end,
as he always pays me the night well spent
And when he finally says something real
I shut down ´cause I hear him speak
Short he´s real and not enough for me
but for the first time I really see him,
saying "I was lost in the fire last time
and I´m afraid to feel
´cause my skin still hurts"
and I know he means his mind
because life and love might burn

I look at his face and he makes me sad,
thinking he´s still 14 and he´s still mad
He just wants a ride back home
and I was there at the right time and alone
He doesn´t even like the colour of my dress,
my skin´s too pale and my lips too dark
But for me everything else is less
and I like mornings better with it
My armour of lies is better than the defect

By the morning time I have cleared my mind
I can listen to the sad songs of 1993
Strip down and breathe
Fix him off from my dreams,
him saying:
"I didn´t like your feather earrings for real"
and I´m thinking,
"well fuck you, then, and fuck your
pine flower lipped dream"
But, of course, my dreams are new next week

He said:
"If I could choose I´d be free
not with anyone else but me
without any burn marks and hurt
without my girl with LA hair and
maybe your red dress turned into skirt
on my pine wooded bedroom floor"

Down to the Desert

I got my heels and you´ve got your car
Let´s get out, I say; let´s get far
The sky is blue and my teeth are strong
Let´s get down to the desert rock
Let´s get down to the desert,
let´s be wrong

You stomped some roses to get some thorns
You asked me to blow and the hurt was gone
The valley´s wide and the sea is far
Let´s burn some sand and let´s find love
Let´s get down to the desert,
let´s get dumb

We have our rockets and some gasoline
You´ve waited so long to get free
The ditches burn and the road is long
Let´s get down to the desert ball
Let´s get down to the desert,
let´s get it all

They have their guns, drugs and taunts
They´ve waited us to get out for so long
The sky is red as my lips and your teeth
Let´s go and burn some rubber and heels
Let´s get down to the desert,
let´s get down to the desert
please

The Moth

What does it look like
from the other side of the transparent box?
I bet we look like we´re liquid,
like we´d disappear as a water drop
But I realized something this morning:
that I couldn´t handle all this as I thought
I´ve felt so strong and insurmountable
but after all I´m still just a moth

It´s easy to be invisible
and easy to hold on tight
But to fly on a Sunday morning
isn´t as fly as on Friday night

You tried to offer some candy
though I´ve been raised too good for that
But all the amount you handed
almost turned a good girl into bad

What did we feel like
when you had the chance to mimic our lives?
I think we were too tangible,
too real to have a good bite
But I´m sure it´s going to be just fine,
all just dandy in time
We will disappear into the Sun
and reappear only by night time

You see it´s easy for me to get by
and I don´t even know why
I should´ve felt a lot more
- guess I´m too vacuous inside

Every day feels so much
and so little at the same time
I wonder it would be easier
to be a dragonfly

What did it sound like
through the glass and the purr?
Maybe it sounded like air,
like nothing was even heard
It´s good to find a nest or den
which ever suits you the best
Maybe it´s now or never and then
you are just like the rest

You remember
It´s easy to be invisible
and easy to hold on tight
But to fly on a Sunday morning
isn´t as fly as on Friday night

Prism

I think you like the blue
just like i do

I think you like to play cold
just like to unfold
what I think of you

I´ve burnt my pink candles
and counted all my ravens
There was no special occasion
I was just thinking about that night

It looks like it´s snowing
white mist is landing
and it makes me ponder
should I keep on descending

O Jack keep on singing about the blindness
let me wrap myself in your sleep
Let the blue come on over you
and let it feed
Let it come into me
and capture all this perplexity and need
Let it feed from this body so cheap
and drink it self to black, replete

I´m dumb enough to feel numb
and I can´t cry when I think about you

There´s this need to burn all those candles
I´m on the red ones right now
Love is green and pain is sweet
and hands on my body feel discreet
even though I´m on the wrong side baby

It looks like it´s raining
and I love to watch those teardrops
Colours that make us free inside
I want to walk at night
Memories are made up
so they are made up right

O Jack keep on singing about the blindness
let me wrap myself in your sleep
Let the blue come on over you
and let it feed
Let it come into me
and capture all this perplexity and need
Let it feed from this body so cheap
and drink it self to black, replete

I´m sure it was snowing
when I found the one I love
Blue started to grow on us
as it started to look like god

It´s the matter of time,
place and pick up lines
And that if I left
I needed to leave right

I´m tired of feeling nothing
though it makes me strong inside
I think I can do anything
´cause I don´t feel alive
Sometimes it confuses me
´cause I don´t remember
which mask is mine
Maybe I have crossed the line
so I have nothing to lose than time

Feeling Strong Never Felt So Hard

Well done, good job
You made her fall so hard
She broke her shoes, she broke her vows
She lost her strength in a doubt
at least feeling strong has never felt so hard

Despair

I got everything, I got nothing
I wanted a green moss on my floor,
my rooms covered as forests
I got everything, I got nothing
And I want it all

I want to sleep in your room,
watch the roof from your couch
Feel it´s fluff against my toes
Hear you tiptoe in to the bath
while I pretend to sleep

I want to hear you, I want to listen
I want to feel your breath on me
I want you to think that I´m asleep
Look at me, touch me

Let´s wake up without feeling numb,
don´t want to feel dumb
because of wanting it all
I want to be real
I want to feel your need

I got everything, I got nothing
I wanted to paint my life
but I got nothing
A pale canvas painted with frost
I got a feeling I am so lost
I want to feel

Let´s pretend once more
Let´s forget the dance floor
I want to hear you whisper
I want to touch your warmth
What if I want to open your door?

Don´t close it in front of me,
don´t take it all back from me
Here I sleep,
hear me breathe
Come and sit close to me
Kiss my eyes open and free

I want it all
though I have everything
and I feel nothing
I wanted moss on my floor
but I found myself begging

Whisperer

I love the sound of the wind when it howls
When it grabs you close and takes you out
And when it leads and leaves you,
forcing the crispy air into your lungs
I love how it talks, how it whispers
and holds your mind down

Bitter & sweet

Drink it up
drink your bubbly water, your coke
Listen to me,
listen to me hard and real close
I have a story that I can´t let go
but I need to pass it on
so I can move on with my other jokes

You know the feeling when you´re lost
You know you shouldn´t buy it
because you know how much it costs
But you want it so hard
without it you´re just lost
You think you want everything or nothing at all
But you forgot how much it hurts to fall

Maybe in time I learn to sing my lines
Maybe the time really heals everything alright
but what if there´s wounds too deep to mend
´Cause you cut them oneself with a rusty blade
Everyday
There´s ways to get broke and broken
because it stings too hard just to bend

Drink it up
drink your salty tear drop liquor
drink your bitter wine
My story is about the time, lies and life
that if you want to build you need to grind
And as I said, I really didn´t mind
But maybe it´s the best to move on
to the next line
And maybe in the next life
there´s no need for cuts too deep
But the jokes are just as fine

Electric Shocks

It feels like electric shocks
in the middle of the chorus
through the mildly shaking body,
silent mouth gasping for air

What a wonderful feeling
to feel so faint and feeble,
under the force of a need,
in need of something more

And what does the feeling look like,
what does the need feel like
When all they can see is just one step,
one step to the wrong line

There might be sirens and supernovas
and crazy dances, mystic nights
Devastatingly beautiful city lights
Loving how the arms can hold on so tight

Never give up, never give in,
never lose your faith in love and living
Falling in autumn, growing under the sun
Never lose your faith in having fun

What if they´re lost in it,
what if they lost it,
what has been the cost of
an electric shock?

There needs to be patience,
there needs to be poems
aching love of letting go
Thirst for getting some more

Find your highway
and hide your name
Listening to Remember Me
Nothing is the same

You Drove All Night

You say you can´t drive fast enough
so let´s read each other's minds
Close your eyes and ask me to close mine
Leave everything else behind
I see you walking like Eastwood
Wonder if I could get closer to you
But you have nothing for me, don´t you?

Somebody could say we´re keeping a secret
but what kind it could be
if you´re not next to me
So close your eyes and try to hide
I´ll find you anyhow in time
Staring the ground, kickin´ the leaves
Somebody´s losing this hide and seek

Show me your sign, stomp the ground
I hear your black boots making a sound
You´ve stopped the car to think things over
but what good has thinking ever done to you?
You want things to change and I´m so afraid
that I could help you to play the game again
But I´m not too good on winning,
my game is to lose

Wait just a moment, don´t open your eyes
What if I asked you to look behind?
I´d be glad to stand just there but
this game has made us a little blind
So after a long wait and a cold night
I hope you´ll take a U-turn
and head back to the city lights

I really wasn´t there
You really drove all night
It´s just that the way we´re clearing our minds
doesn´t seem so right
I´d rather lose a moment with you
than see you losing your life
It´s just the way reality bites