Should´ve, could´ve, would´ve

I miss you, I´m missing him,
I need him to get under my skin
I need someone to know
what it feels like when there´s something
something that can´t be put into words
But something
something that can only get worse

It should´ve been love
It should be cry
There should be tears falling from the sky
It should be dark if it gets cold
and you should be near when I get old
It should be something else
than this
when cry doesn´t come and all I do is
miss

There´s memories in the air
but I still haven´t made that charm
and you´re not around
Like what the fuck
You should be right here next to me
listening to these sad songs and
laying your hand on me
Kissing softly my cheek and
tasting like dark wine
I should´ve not had

I need you, I´m needing him
I need him to kiss away this grim
I need someone to know
what it feels like to bury something
something that should´ve not been found
Under the smiles
under the laughter and being proud

It could´ve been fun
It could be sweet
There could be tears of joy falling
It could get severe and taste like sin
and you could be the one taking me in
When it gets rough and it gets cold
and I couldn´t fake anymore to be bold
maybe I could weep

Like hey, where are you now,
when I´m ready to fall and
I´m giving it all
to anyone who wants a part of me
A limb or thought, I know
word´s a sword
Fuck, open the door and kiss me to death
Love me and please take my breath
away

I know it´s you,
and it´s always been
You are too good to be a dream
You´re my lighthouse and haven,
you know it´s true
I was just born to be a fool
I dream and I want to sleep,
sleep with you next to me
Forget all that´s not us
and open my eyes to see
I do